Going Through

I am trying to come up with a solution to a problem. It’s been a problem for a little while now, and I have been working hard to determine what exactly I need to believe, get over, understand, or forgive in order to feel ok and make everything work again. I equivocate between determining that I need to reach deeper and love better, and, establishing boundaries and not allowing myself to be taken advantage of. Depending on the day, I’m happy and “relieved” that I’ve figured it out, or, fuming underneath a façade of “I’m fine”.175
I think that I do need to reach deeper and forgive, but that’s not exactly the solution to the problem. I think that I do need to establish boundaries and speak about what is hurting me, but that’s not the solution either. Those things are both important but they won’t fix it.
It occurred to me today that what it is I’m enduring isn’t up to me to fix. It’s not my fault and it’s not something I can change by performance or insight. I simply must go through it, one moment at a time. 206And He will be there with me every moment, giving me grace and reminding me of truth. He will be there loving me and reminding me to forgive again. He will be there when my pain is misunderstood, again. He will be there when I feel unloved by others, and when I fail to love others well.
This is short and sweet because that is all there is to it. No easy answers, just Jesus.

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